I am lost and I don't know what to do. My life, if it ever was together, is falling apart. I lost my best friend of fifteen years because he's obsessed with his girlfriend and can't be bothered to keep in touch. I'm trying to move on from the horrors of my first-year drama and friends, but it's hard to make new friends all at once and I'm shy about getting close to people.

Hey, I haven't been on in a while because I didn't have internet access all summer, which was awful beyond all awfulness. Anyways, I'm at college now. It's okay. I'm thinking about transfering because I'm not being challenged. A bout of depression is coming on, which sucks.

Well. Today was my first day of classes. I had Physical Science, and then Convo [we have to go to 40 in the 4 years of college here], then College Writing. Then I went to lunch and hung out with my new friend Sarah for a while. Now I'm sitting in my dorm room alone [no roommate, people hate me I guess] litening to music. I have to leave in a little bit for Christian Faith.

I thought college would be a bastion of spirited intellectualism, that there would be so many more people like me, that I would love my classes. There would be vibrant lectures and debates, I would think deeply about hard issues every day, I would go to art shows and concerts and plays, I would play music, write music, sing music, become a poet.

I need a date to prom, who wants to come with me??

Prom isn't for a few months but I have to figure out now who I'm going with, so I can figure out transportation and stuff. I'm stressing because I don't know what I'm going to do. I don't need a date, but I would like one, you know. I want a limo too, but IDK who I'm riding with, so I don't know if I can get one.

My GSA meeting was yesterday and it was fun!

Classes have been ok. I have both my 1st Exams for HNA and Math next Thurs. Kickboxing has been good,although,except for the bodybag stuff and my turn to hold it for my partner,hehe. My hamstrings are sore though,gotta stretch for longer I guess. I started work on my 1st project for 3-D design and have 2 more days(but could include weekend) until the duedate of the 11th.

Ok so this is a double edged sword sort of deal but here it goes...So after a couple weeks of trying to get scholarships I had one land on my doorstep. I'm an eagle scout in the Boy scouts and they offered me a half tuition scholarship to one of the colleges in my state that has a great teaching program.

Recently, my mother found and watched two lesbian movies on my computer, Saving Face and When Night is Falling (both of which are superb lesbian movies that trump all of the ones I've seen before--WNiF definitely earns my award for best lovemaking scene).

It was a considerable nightmare.
My dad stopped the car in a parking lot.

I'm going! To college! In five days!

Smith, of course, which is excellently queer. We shall see how the all-girls' thing pans out.

hey guys!!!

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Don't be afraid...

I found such a neat place to talk, chat, exchange ideas, and such. It is a chat room, but so unlike any that i found before. Here i can see who i am talking to and interact with them. No not their pic, not a cam, but a avaitar type of thing, a sim if u will. i choise a body type, a hair style, clothing to ware, and so on until i had a person who looked like me looking back at me on the monitor.

Well, today was my first day of School at Sinclair Community College. I had two classes today: MAT 101: Elementary Algebra, and LAW 101: Business Law 1. Tomorrow, I have ACC 121: Financial Accounting. I hope to survive tomorrow, because I know for a fact that I have the campus's toughest professor.

I told my mom a while back that I was "lk that" and wasn't going to change. She seemed okay with it... She said it was my choice and just to know that once I make that choice, (to come out to all or to be with a girl) that nothing would be the same. Life would be harder. So, thanks? I mean I thought it was okay. Too good to be true???