Suburban Fags.

scandalboy — Sun, 16 Nov 2008 01:15:44 -0500

This world I'm living in is so insular and weirdly closed. All the gay boys in my town seem to know each other. Living in this suburban nightmare has thrown so many of us together - we've gravitated towards one another and we're all connected somehow, usually through mutual friends. Another way is that we do a show with one person, and they've done a show with THIS OTHER person, etc....

don't get involved with drugs, just fill ur life with hugs

scandalboy — Wed, 12 Nov 2008 07:06:04 -0500

lol, good old summer heights high.

i feel a bit confused about a few things. ok, so im going to come out really soon to my family. as in, next week. but it isnt working out the way i planned. i wanted to talk to my sister first, but i can never get a hold of her. she doesnt live at home, and she has a roommate.
ill figure something out, but still...ugh.

I need high ceilings.

scandalboy — Wed, 05 Nov 2008 00:46:43 -0500

I am waiting for Friday.
Tomorrow I am supposed to hand in another one of those excellent 2500 word essays. I've written 1300 words, so thats pretty ok. It's kinda cold today, so I'm wearing a jumper, which is really interesting lol

I think the worst thing in the world is loving someone more than they love you. I hate it ay. I hate loving a friend, but needing them more than they need you.

All I do is whinge.

scandalboy — Sun, 19 Oct 2008 09:10:20 -0400

But that's ok, no one is under any obligation to read this :)

So my life is down the shitter at the moment. It's not the fault of some boy, or my parents, but just myself. I make things so hard for myself and I don't know why. I guess I really am a sadist. I'm NEVER happy.

I feel like topping myself... right about now. But that's the coward's way out, isn't it?

Hedwig and the Angry Inch Australian Cast: Review

scandalboy — Sat, 11 Oct 2008 22:46:54 -0400

Last night I saw "Hedwig and the Angry Inch" at Cremorne Theatre, starring Michael Falzon as Hedwig, and Lucinda Shaw as Yitzhak. I must say, I was totally blown away!

The ol' go-behind-my-back trick.

scandalboy — Sat, 04 Oct 2008 03:01:07 -0400

My best friend has a problem with me at the moment but won't say anything to my face.

My very own Shortbus.

scandalboy — Tue, 30 Sep 2008 00:15:13 -0400

I marvel at the fact that a film like this can reach someone like me. I'm in a shitter of a town, too poor to move to the big city. Stuck in a crap job, living at home, haven't been laid in 6 months. My friends are nothing, I am nothing. But I saw this movie and it touched me.

Puberty Blues

scandalboy — Sun, 28 Sep 2008 20:47:14 -0400

I love this movie. it is so grouse, dead set. lol. i swear, im going to be talking like this for a week.

I watched a bit of Mighty Boosh last night, and I'd forgotten how much I reference it. Eg, "Pulling shapes."
Ha.

Went clubbing for the first time.

scandalboy — Sun, 28 Sep 2008 08:53:45 -0400

So I turned 18 ten days ago. and this weekend i went away to the coast with 3 friends. We went to a gay club. and i was really glad we went.
the bartender was really sweet and nice to me.

and its weird... i feel like i belonged, but at the same time i didnt. cos i was with my people, but they were all skinnier than me, were better built than me, and had nicer hair than me.

Witty title.

scandalboy — Wed, 17 Sep 2008 21:35:04 -0400

I am so tired. I wish it was Friday, 5pm. Cos that means I'll have finished my 2500 word essay (That currently i've only written 900 words of).

I still love him and I hate it.

scandalboy — Thu, 11 Sep 2008 08:32:19 -0400

I had a relapse today. I realised that after 6 months, I still love the bastard. I have a meeting at uni tomorrow concerning our productions, and I'm sure he'll be there. I was thinking I'll ask him to have a coffee afterwards. I just need to talk to him. I feel so stupid for still feeling like this.

Life partners.

scandalboy — Wed, 10 Sep 2008 11:52:29 -0400

There is a 19 yr old guy in my drama class who calls his boyfriend his partner.

That's cute, but also I find it a bit strange. I always thought 'partner' was a word reserved for middle aged lesbians and cowboys.

Dear Dad

scandalboy — Sun, 07 Sep 2008 00:42:42 -0400

It's Father's Day. And I really don't care. I know I should, and I feel guilty because I don't.

I'm sick of trying. Trying to like you, trying hard to get along with you, trying not to let you get to me, trying not to snap at you. I love you, I really do. But it's too hard and I have enough difficulties without you bustling your way into my life and making it hard for everyone around you.

What's going on?!

scandalboy — Sat, 06 Sep 2008 07:39:39 -0400

So much stuff. I saw Tropic Thunder tonight. The only funny bit was the Azaria Chamberlain reference..." Mother lost a baby. That really happened."

I'm watching The Wizard of Oz right now.

get ur priorities right!

scandalboy — Mon, 01 Sep 2008 07:06:15 -0400

i just got told by my mum to get my priorities right. because i forgot to go into centrelink to pick up my lousy fucking $50 a fortnight. but i find the time to socialise. never mind the fact that i have uni all day on the day i am supposed to report. or that the only reason i see my friends once or twice a week is so i dont explode with stress over my assignments.