So...I saw my first ever live musical tonight. Spring Awakening. It was great. I loved it. My favorite song was "Totally Fucked". Also while I was there there was an earthquake

Well I started school on tuesday...that was a horrible class but i dropped its so its cool. but wednesday was awesome, i love my MWF classes :D. then today I had yoga which i can tell I'll enjoy. ANd i'm tryin to get into a Karate class.

I made friends which is really cool, but its crazy cuz i feel like i've known them forever. i would write more, but i'm actually at the school bookstore, so i'll write more later

I just high for the first time. I just realised when I'm high... I'm horny.

Anyways, I saw Pineapple Epxress, but got high in order to see it. It still wasn't as funny as I wanted it to be. Oh wells.

Well, I'm fucking pissed at the mo... I still don't have my dorm. grr.

You see, I'm on the waiting list for dorms, and they send out updates every tuesday and friday. well for the last three updates i was number 14, and i was like fer sure i'll be in soon, but on today's update i was only 11. And yeah, i'll be getting a dorm soon but not soon enough.
As a backup plan for not getting a dorm my cousin said I could stay with her, but if I do I have to move next weekend. The shitty thing about this is that on Aug 17 I'm supposed to go to Warped Tour, and I already bought my ticket, but I can't go unless I have a dorm.

So as it stands now I'm being realistic, and I'm sad, because unless 11 people who already have dorms drop dead, I wont be able to go to Warped. So yeah, im angry. grrr.

I should send this story to Max Bemis. cuz Max, from the band Say Anything, is having this song workshop thingy, where people send their stories and he writes a song about it. I think it would be awesome if a song was written about how I couldn't go see him sing.

yeah..... i'm mad. >|

Well I'm not instantaneously rich yet. Since I'm 18 now(yay!!!) I purchased some lotto tickets, the Mega Million and Super Lotto plus, and my lucky numbers didn't win :(. So i gues now I have to earn my forturne, darn. Or maybe I could marry rich, that seems like a funner option. I mean more fun, cuz funner isn't a word. lol.

I'm so bored. but not only right now, in general. I babysit my nephew, but I don't like him so I don't kike taking him places, so we just sit in the house all day. grrr. So I need to go do something.

In other news, depending on my housing I'll be moving somewhere between a week and a half and two. I want the two week option so I can go to Warped Tour. Because if I get hosuing, I'm 14 on the waiting list, then I can leave August 20, which means I'll still be in SoCal August 17 which is Warped. But if I don't get housing I'll have to leave the weekend before so I'll miss Warped, which sucks cuz I already purchased my ticket.
And on top of the Warped drama, I'm just plain old sad to be moving. :( But its only an hour away by plane, so its not too bad.

I'm final legal, today is my 18th birthday. Its exciting. I don't actually have any plans, i'm just excited to be 18. I bought my first lottery tickets, I got a scratcher, and a mega million, and super lotto. In my family, the lottery is a big deal, so buyin the ticket felt cool.

I'm the youngest in my family, so now, we're all grown up, and my mom has no more minor kids. I feel cool :D

Learning Guitar is so hard for me. I never was able to teach myself anything, so why did I think guitar would be any different... :/
I just need to find some money and get lessons, but I am so broke, so thats not going to happen for a while. Or I could just wait till January, I'll prolly just take a guitar class at SFSU, that way its free :D

I have like five countdowns going on atm. Let's see my first vegas trip is in 7 days, 18th bday is in 16 days, warped tour is in 30 days, I move to SF in 32 days, then classes start in 39. I'm just so excited doing all this stuff, especially to finally be going to college. And I like the classes I picked, they all seem interesting, and I checked the rpofessors on ratemyproffesors.com and they all had good reviews, so i'm very optimistic about that. I'm taking: First year composition, Women in american history and society, logic/psychology - critical thinking, a fitness and condition class, and physical geology. Most of my classes are MonWedFri except Geology is on tuesdays and thursdays.

Through facebook, I already made a couple of friends too.
The two people I talk to most are both queer(which is more nonstraight people than all the ones I know from Pasadena, excluding those related to me). Seriously all of my friends are straight or in denial, so far in the closet that I suspect but sometimes I'm not too sure, and I don't like to accuse people of being gay if they say they aren't. Anywas the two kids I'm talking are real cool. One's a girl, she's really nice, and the other is a guy, and he has four classes with me, which is a lot considering I'm only taking 5 classes :D. So I won't be too lonely.

The other day I was being all emo and insecure, about whether or not I would make friends. And my current friends were really encouraging me, telling me how awesome I am, and how it would be impossible for me not to make friends. SO i felt really loved. :D

I suck so hard at coming up with titles, so now im opting out of doing it at all.

In three weeks I'll be 18, and I've been trying to calculate, and I've figured out that I made my Oasis account like 3 days after my 15 birthday. Since then I've written like nothing, or nothing interesting that is.

Yeah, this journal was pointless. :D

Oh yeah, in a month I'll be moving to San Francisco, and starting my freshman year of college!!!!!!!!

I had my worst food experience ever. Even worse than my food poisoning from expired salad dressing.

About 15 minutes ago, I wanted to make breakfast so I went and grabbed two eggs. I cracked them, and already I was a little wierded out becasue they had white little hang ons, like embillical cords, or whatever that stuff is. I was really hungry, so I just picked that stuff out.
then I went to pierce a yolk and blood spurted out, well not really spurted or it was a weak spurt. As soon as I saw it I threw up. then I started to cry. I don't know if I'll be able to eat eggs anymore.
Which sucks, cause since I''ve became a vegetarian, eggs have been my three square meals, so idk what I'm supposed to eat now :(

In less depressing(for me at least) news, I have a new favorite song, aka a song I'll play on repeat until I( and everyone who encounters me) hates it.
Shiska(Girlfriend) by Say Anything.

I liked this song for a while, but I barely download it last night, so now its my new fav. And awesomely I get to see them at Warped Tour in a month, I'm so excited. Speaking of, i created a donate button, to fund my trip to warped tour, cuz im still a little short, and unable to find a job.

tomorrow, is officially my last day of high school. I don't really know how i'm feeling about that. It like, ahsn't really hit me that this is it, that after tommorow I won't see half the people i saw on an everyday basis ever again. I don't think i'm sad, but i just sorta feel numb to it all.

I got my yearbook, today, and idk why, but I was feeling all low self-esteemy, and was feeling as though no one would want to sign it. well people did, and I don't know where that little insecurity popped up from.

one of my friends, when she was signing my yearbook, she was crying, and i just felt so touched. i didn't read her, or anyone elses, message till i got home but, i'm gonna miss the girl so much. :(

usually, im really apathetic when it comes to people not being around, but there are a select few from school that i'm really gonna miss. I know I have the summer, but I want to get a job, and so i don't know how often I'm gonna be able to hang out with people.

In other news, grad night is this Wednesday. We can't bring anything with us, and I have to find something to wear to, cuz the dress code is kinda strict too. :(. My orientation for SFSU is this Friday!!!!. I get to pick my classes!!!, it hasn't really hit me yet, that I'm going to college.

Graduation is next Wednesday, I'll finally be a hs graduate. It really doesnt matter to me if I walk, so I'm really doing it for my mom. She has 8 kids and I'm the youngest and the only one she'll ever see graduate. Only one of my siblings graduated, the rest either got expelled or dropped out. So I know this will mean a lot to my mom.

Oh and one more thing, this weekend I had a ending ceremony thingy for upward bound, and they were handing out awards and such. The director, Yara, the lady in charge of the whole program was giving out the Director's award, and I got it. I never saw this coming because I'm a subpar student, but I guess it was my enigmatic personality, or just becasue I'm really loud. lol

Well, I've ran out of things to say.
Laters

So, I finished my last final this morning. So i guess I'm technically done with high school. But my Art teacher says I have to kep going to school untill all seniors finish their finals, which is the 10th. So now I'm just going to go to school at nutrition and leave at lunch.

Is the best website ever. Its really cool, because it lets you send an emailto yourself in the future. Like I have one written from three years ago that I'm supposed to get June 25. I don't know it says, but I'm really curious. Everyone should totally send themselves a letter.

Well, I've been a vegetarian for two months now. I'm proud of myself, because I suck at sticking to things and I have a horrible lack of self control. But bring a vegetarian, was the easiest thing I attempted to do.

Well today marks the fourth week of me being a vegetarian. I thought it would be harder, but it wasn't hard at all. I just don't have much to eat at hgome. My sister is very supportive and buys me things like vegetarian lasagna, and such. I don'tfeel much different than i did before. I'm not overky repulsed by meat or anything. lol. The most fun aprt of being a vegetarian, for me at least, is whenever anyone eats me I can say "so how's your murder." And its fun to randomly say, "meat is murder" lol. All my friends are used to it now.
For prom there was an option to order a vegetarian plate, but I completely forgot, so I'm just going to have a bunch of side dishes and appetizers, no main course. oh wells.

Oh, speaking of prom, I have a date now. I'm going with my ex-best friend Daniel, the one I used to live with. Because the girl he asked, her mom wouldn't let her go, so we just decided to go together.

Well, I want to expand on my lst journal entry about rejection. It wasn't an out right rejection. Well, I told our mutual friend, Carlos to hook it up. Carlos told Ingrid, the girl, and she was all like "oh she's not my type and im trying to focus on school, blah blah blah words words words..."
The thing about Ingrid is that I only talked to her like three times, ever. So it was just a little crush, and it wasn;t like I was madly in love with her. So anyways, the day I found out she said no, I walked past her and a group of friends, and Carlos said hi to me, then her friends wre like "Ingrid" and laughed. That was sad. i was sad. :( . Anyways the next day, yesterday, I was in the cafeteria, and so were Carlos, Ingrid, and their friend Sarah. I needed to talk to Carlos, but I really didn't want to be by Ingrid. So I saw here leave to another table to talk to someone, so I decided that was the perfect tiem to go talk to Carlos. But just as I start walking over htere, she starts walking back. I figured I had to keep walking, cuz I would look pretty stupid if I just did a U-turn. lol.

So I get to the table and talk sit next to Carlos, and Ingrid sat right across from me, but I made sure not to even look at her. lol. Well anyways I'm talking to Carlos, and he was saying how he was going to smoke me out, and such. Then outta nowhere I hear Ingrid say my name and ask me if I smoke. I told her I didn't, that I only did it once. Anyways, I turn back to Carlos and we finished our convo, then I left outside with my bff forever #3.

Anyways I have this thingm where I hate when people know my name, unless i tell them or we have a class together. And I know its perfectly logical that she konows my name, but it was just wierd to hear her say it. I liked it. lol. But I just wish she pretends I don't exist, since I'm trying to do the same towards her.

That is all. Lol. Yeah, I just got rejected. but i'm not tripping to hard. I didn't really like the chick, I just thought she was hella hot. lol.