I got my schedule for school today and so far none of my close friends have any of my classes!! Tomorrow I will know if another one of my friends shares or doesn't share any of my classes. If I don't have anyone in my classes I guess I will live but I'll probably miss them. I like to meet new people at school if they're interesting but I might be a LITTLE nervous if I don't know ANYONE! I'm not freaking out just anxious and a little uneasy. On the 21st is the orientation thingy for books and lockers etc.
I want the rest of the month to last forever.

My second journal entry on this sight has 25 things about me and I've decided to add to it.
Recap:
1. I'm 14, soon to turn 15
2. I'm female
3. I'm a tomboy
4. I like sports, specifically SOCCER
5. One day I will eventually get guitar lessons, self teaching doesn't work that well haha...
6. I play video games
7. Anime is fun to watch sometimes when I'm bored
8. That reminds me, I'm a movie fanatic!
9. Gorey movies rock my world
10. I've recently discovered that drama movies are actually pretty good, despite my before judgments
11. Drawing is fun...
12. I have a deviantart page but it mostly has photography
13. A large percentage of my clothes are black...
14. I write poetry, but only when it comes to me
15. I'm a very indecisive person
16. I lack social skills, and have come to the conclusion that I should blame this on not going to pre school hahaha
17. I say haha a lot
18. I'm kinda a computer nerd
19. I don't wear glasses and don't have braces, YAY! (no offense to anyone haha)
20. I'm completely random, yay for random people, I love them!
21. Strange people pique my interest, some of them...
22. I like to read, but it's not my life
23. Caffeine is the best invention
24. Particularly Mountain Dew or mochas....
25. I'm really open minded

new
26. update: i'm 15 soon to turn 16
27. My orientation as of now is bi, but I'll probably end up being gay
28. I'm not rushing into anything I don't understand (my orientation)
29. No longer are a large percentage of my clothes black, I've added colors
30. I like my things to be organized but I won't freak out at you if your house is a mess, it's your house
31. I LOVE to read, it's now become a normal hobby
32. I don't watch a lot of tv but I'll rent tv series
33. I've recently discovered the L word and love it
34. I buy things off ebay, but I won't buy something you wouldn't buy O_o
35. My mind is currently stable and I'm not depressed
36. I don't have a personal crush right now
37. I really like kate moennig, but I'm not CRAZY obsessed
38. I've told ONE person I know personally that I am bi and 3 or 4 people who I do not know personally (online friends)
39. I like to create movie lists
40. I'm independent and do things alone, but that doesn't mean I don't like company
41. High school frightens me but I'm secretly excited
42. People say music is life, but I listen to music and find it's not LIFE
43. I'm still a tomboy =]
44. I wish my brother would move out, he's a loser
45. I'm considerably mature for my age, it surprises me as much as it surprises other people
46. I still have teenage hormones and old people are still boring, I'm not THAT Mature, I don't read classics
47. I really like wolves
48. I don't use myspace that much
49. My walls are filled with movie posters
50. I like to convince people to watch the movies I like
51. All my journals are song quotes except the first 10, give or take a couple

Thanks for reading.

I just finished watching Gray Matters and I thought it was a really cute movie. I thought the ending could have been a little better, but other than that, it was great. I just checked it out today and I'll probably return it tomorrow. I also checked out the Tracy Fragments and was wondering if anyone has seen it yet and if it's good.
It has Ellen Page in it and it looks pretty cool.

YEAH! GUESS WHAT?!
I just bought the first season of the L word online, whooo. I'm so happy! Now I just have to plan out how I'm going to get it in the house without anyone finding out and possibly lie! To do this I'll need to wake up early every day (early for me) and check the mail because if they deliver it, it will come earlier than regular mail. But it might fit in the mailbox. The only other person home during the day is my mom but she is either sleeping or running errands all the time so it shouldn't be too hard. If she happens to check the mail or sees me I will just say I bought some books online because she knew I was buying something but I never told her what. She doesn't know about books I read so I'll just pretend it's ones I already have. The package should be in cardboard or wrapped anyway. So I'm actually not that worried about it. And my parents never come in my room or would search for stuff cause they're not crazy and they trust me. But if everything fails who cares because neither of them even know what the L word is and they can figure it out in their heads.

Anyway, I'm super tired and have been running on few hours of sleep the past week and I think I'll go back to bed.

I'm trying to buy the first season of the L word on ebay and right now it's really cheap but I'm being threatened by a higher bidder. Today I'm going to put more money in the bank. Usually when someone outbids me I won't go for it because I can just find another one, but this is huge. I'm going to be pissed if I don't get this! Must....win....season.....one....

Anyway, tonight the fourth episode is on and I can't wait to watch it. Every week seems like it takes forever but at the same time I'm glad because I want the summer to last, I just wish I could watch the L word more without waiting a whole week to watch one episode.

Today I got my permit!! FINALLY! I've been waiting a while to get it but my parents haven't taken me but now all I need is to take drivers ed so I can get my license when I turn 16, in a couple months. I'm kind of scared to drive on the road with other people with my permit but I'm sure I'll eventually get up the courage to.

Going to the bank.....

I was wondering if anyone has seen Gray Matters and if it was a good enough movie to watch?

kate moennig is hot.

jenny is still my favorite though XP

I just finished watching the third episode of the L word. I definitely love it. I watched the first episode two weeks ago to see if I would like it cause I wasn't sure what it would be like, but so far I think it's great. But I hate to wait a week until the next episode. I probably could watch it online on youtube or something but the quality is shit and the size is really small. The nearby hollywood video has some of the seasons but I don't want to risk renting them in case my parents find out. Anyway, I can't wait to watch next weeks episode...

my favorite so far:

I think she's really pretty =]

I just discovered, well actually on Thursday, that The L Word is now beginning to play on Logo! I've read about it and I don't think I would check it out or anything but if it's on TV that's a great convenience for me, I just have to remember to watch it every Thursday. It comes on twice on Thursday in case you miss the first airing, and I guess I'm going to start watching it because I watched the pilot episode and it was intriguing =]

Also, I was wondering if anyone had movie suggestions for me. I've seen Imagine Me & You and so far it's my favorite gay movie but other than that I haven't seen anything that great. If you suggest any movies I hope there's not a lot of sex in it because it's really not an interest for me but if there is, than eh, oh well. I just think it would be incredibly akward for someone to walk in my room and see my watching that! lol! If you do contribute, than thanks a bunch!

The first official day of summer. Today is the longest day of the year! I'm going to celebrate it by staying up all night, whoo! Today I walked to Safeway and back home and it took about an hour. It was hot out, for Washington anyway. Then later I decided to ride my bike because I didn't have anything to do and I thought I might go crazy for staying inside! I'm totally watching Xmen 2 and Xmen 3 tonight! YEAH! I like Xmen. It's pretty cool. I can't wait for the new one to come out. Anyway, I probably should start watching that.

This is the first person I've come out to that I know personally and I'm really really excited and I was shaking and I told her online and she said it was cool and that I'm still me and it made me really happy because I've been wanting to tell someone!!!!!!!!! It's not the girl I like but someone I've known forever and someone I know I can trust, I'M SO HAPPY!!!

Tomorrow is the last day of school and it's only for like 3 hours. I'm hella excited but at the same time sad because it'll be the last day of ninth grade and I know in high school I might not see all my friends all the time like this year. I hope my crush is there tomorrow. If she's not it's going to SUCK but I'm sure I can make the best of it. I just want to see her one last time before summer since I might not see her in high school either.
I can't go to sleep! It's 11.15 and I know I should try to go to bed but I took a nap earlier and now I'm awake and plus I'm nocturnal so it's really hard AND I'm excited for tomorrow, that doesn't help!
Hazzaa for late nights.

What's the longest crush you've had that's gone unrequited or untold of?
Please tell me because I think I might go crazy. This is probably the most serious crush I've ever had, too bad I'm a loser XD

It's only been a year.

Today was the last full day of school. Monday we go back for only a couple hours. I'm happy and sad at the same time. The last week of 9th grade is finally over and I'm excited for summer but I miss everything, and everyone. Everything will be different, and I don't want it to be. But I know high school will be a great experience as well and that I've been rushing to get there for so long that now I don't want to leave, I want to stay young and irresponsible and I don't want to care.
Today was also the 9th grade dance, but I didn't go. It's not really appropriate, there's no point for it I guess, but I wasn't really sad about that. I figured it might have been akward anyway going with all my friends who all have dates and such, but I've never gone to a dance in the 3 years I've gone to the school, so I didn't put much thought into going in the first place. Even though this year has been different than all the other years, better, since I finally have friends. Maybe it would have been fun to go, I guess I'll never know. I'm glad everyone else had a great time though, I'm really happy that everyone else is happy. It seems that when I'm feeling really great at school no one else is and it sucks, but now that I'm happy most of the time it doesn't occur so often.

I'm still in love with my crush. How disappointing. This summer it will probably go away but I'll just let it happen because obviously I'm not going to try if I haven't already. She's amazing. I was going to tell her in her year book, but that might sound creepy. So instead I wrote, don't forget me, which I think fits, less is more, I always say. I had been debating the last couple days what I would say too...I'm happy she signed mine though. 'I'm going to miss you this summer! I hope to see you next year' which satisfies me much. Maybe one day I'll tell her :/

Anyways, summer is finally here and no more waking early in the morning, or going to bed at a reasonable time or taking naps in the middle of the day. I'd rather sleep all day and stay up all night and lose all track of time!!

I love Hayley Williams.