This will probably be the last journal I write before going on holidays for a month.Woo'hoo!!Though I don't leave for another four days,so I might have something significant to write about before then.Though to be fair I don't really have that much significant stuff to write about right now.Just home alone with some period pain and decided to come online.

So hmm,whats been going on with me then?Well I must say I have been enjoying the first few weeks of my summer break.I've been working a little bit and on the days that I haven't been working I've been hanging out with various friends.I've been to a couple of concerts and seen a lot of movies and done some shopping.Basically at the start of the summer I decided that this one would be different.That I would make sure I enjoyed it and made an effort to make sure I did.So it's all going fairly well so far.

I still have the whole coming-out thing hanging over me for when I get back from my travles.But I'm not dreading it as much anymore.My friend asked me the other day how exactly I planned to approach it.Like yeah I say I will come-out,but have I thought logically how I am going to do that.To be honest I'm not 100 per cent sure really.I don't want to make it a huge event.I think I'll just let it be a gradual thing.I would like to hang out more on the gay scene and I have friends who really want to help me and want to do that too.Also just hiding less things really.Well I've already started that a little bit.I changed some stuff around on my bebo page to provide some little hints,and I have left some messages on my page from gay friends about some gay events that previously I would have really freaked out about being there.The steps are little but feel good.

I'm not sure what else I have to write about now.I've also been practicing guitar loads and can really feel myself improving at that which makes me really happy.I guess making a consious decision to really go for some happiness and what I want has been paying off.Believe you can do anything and you can I guess(damn that is cheesy!!).

Anyways I hope all your Summer's are going nicely.Catch ya laterz.