If only is a wish too late

26 May, 2008 - 9:26pm — the ghost

I feel sad today.It's that sadness that usually lurks around but on busy days I can ignore it and push it away for a while.Well today wasn't a busy day.It's that sad feeling of I wish I didn't make my life the way it is now.I wish I had more friends,I wish I was out of the closet,I wish I had a girlfriend,I wish I didn't regret so many of the choices I have made mostly in the past five years.

I am going away soon for an entire month.Half way across the world infact.I would like a fresh start when I am back.A chance to do things differently.I was talking to a friend the other day and she was telling me what an experience it is to go travel away from home for a while.I hope she is right.I know in order for things to be different I have to change.I think I am more scared of myself doing nothing to change my current unhappiness than the moves I know I must make to change my situation and my life.

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27 May, 2008 - 10:50pm — thinks

Isn't that scary? Feeling

Isn't that scary? Feeling like you need to do something but afraid of it AND afraid of the current existance/nothing that exists because of the not doing anything?

I don't know if I made any sense or not but if I didn't what I'm really trying to say is that I can understand those troubled feelings your having.

I sincerely hope that your travels will remedy something or another. ;)

27 May, 2008 - 11:37pm — the ghost

Thanks dude I appreciate the

Thanks dude I appreciate the comment.

No one can make you feel inferior without your consent-Eleanor Roosevelt

28 May, 2008 - 12:57am — Riku

Sometimes traveling can help

Sometimes traveling can help to clear your mind.

If you feel you need to change, the best thing you could do for yourself is to do it. It can be a little scary, but it's worth it in the long run, because even if things go sour, if things are already bad, you're just in a different situation, and at least you can look back and not regret not trying to do something about it. I don't know about you, but I hate regretting something I didn't do. ^^

But take your time and don't do anything you're not ready for. Good luck and hopefully getting out for a while will help. :)