shit! Man!

I have to sort out this fucking phone bill problem of my student house. We have about more than 100 Eurp dept on our account, and this is not my fault, but the girl who took care of the phone bill before I started doing it. And now I have to annoy people who don't even live here any more, and bug them to pay their old dept, and part of the general dept where nobody knows where it comes from. I have so often wanted to simply say: No, I don't want to do this task. It is not my fault. Task rejected. Give me another one. But of course I know it is not possible. Then we get the next angry letter from the bank saying that we need to pay our dept, other wise --- I don't know actually what they will do otherwise. But they seem serious.
This has given me so much trouble... if the dept were just 30 Euro instead of 100, I would simply pay it all by myself just to not have to deal with it any more. But more than 100 Euro, that's a bit too much for me.

On top of that, I just read an explanation from my gyneocologist about one laboratory blood test they did on me, explaining that I have some high value of some hormones. Probably everything is okay, but it is advisable to do another blood test, and then I have to come between the 3rd and ___ (I forgot, but it's a rather narrow time frame) of my period to have them take blood. And since I still go to that gyneocologist who lives in my parent's city, 7 hours travelling away from where I live now, this means that I either have to make sure to be at my parents' place at exactly that day of my period (how can I reasonably plan that?? I don't have any holidays coming up), or I have to look for a gyneocologist here and have my old one explain her what she needs to do. But I don't very much like that idea either.
So those prospects, next to the alternative that I am probably fine but that there is this risk that I have this strange hormone problem (don't even know what that would mean...), are not really cheering me up after this phone bill dept shit. !!!!! Damn. Help!

And on top of all that, the woman who has captured my thoughts pretty much most of the time these days, and for whom I started using msn a few days ago, is not online
:-( Maybe it is good because I would probably be not a very inspiring msn chat partner right now, but nooo!! I still simply want to talk to her!

I should do something. It is too early to go to bed, but all I can think of doing can't motivate me.
So will I continue ranting ranting ranting until ...I don't know... that woman comes online?